in order of appearance: very sweet, overly sweet, crazy sweet, bitter sweet. 'nuff said.
al came over this afternoon. he brought me a chuck roast from a cattle farmer he knows in morrow county. yes, grass fed. goes in the crockpot first thing in the morning. we talked, made plans, played guitars, sang, split a bit of wood. made plans. he knows i'm struggling: with grief, alcohol, depression, regret, guilt. he brought me a chuck roast from a farmer he knows. he's a great brother.
i'm not lonely. but i do feel very much alone most of the time. but i didn't for an afternoon.